20 September 2019

#New Beginnings

  A round of applause for me, I got a new job 😅


River Thames

After what felt like an eternity of searching, applying online and going on interviews, I finally landed a job. I'm now, 3 weeks into my new role as a procurement administrator for an IT company. I don't want to jinx it by saying I'm enjoying it, in case it goes tits up. But so far I don't hate it. In fact I'd actually go as far as to say I'm liking it and feeling a bit more positivity towards my working life. Everyone I have met so far has been lovely and made me feel welcome, I'm learning new things and my stress levels are on the decline. #happydays.

I'm still missing a few of my luvlies over at  Cisilion. We've still not managed to cut the umbilical cord yet. Which would explain, why I've been back to meet them 3 times in 2 weeks for customary drinks. With that being said, I've managed to cut down (a tiny bit) on my drinking for Sept.

Leaving my pals, has been difficult. Although leaving one pal (or at least someone I thought was a pal) was made a little easier. Someone I thought was a friend and therefore I put my trust in and confided in, turned out to a bigger gossiper than Regina George from 'The Plastics' in mean girls. I genuinely thought, they had my back. So I told them more, than probably anyone else there in a long time. Turns out, they've revealed pretty much everything I've ever told them in confidence. The funny thing is, they still believe (I'm guessing because they're unaware that I know that they're a motor mouth) is that I should still be disclosing my secrets to them. Anyway, the reason I'm bringing this up is....

A) To get it off my chest - The betrayal was eating away at me and making me feel pessimistic. Creating a negative thought pattern and disrupting my sense of peace. So, I'm venting it out here, so I can do an Elsa and let it go.

B) Trust  Issues - I genuinely believed I could rely on this person to have my back. This was a friendship that had been building over the last year. So upon realising I was wrong about that, has caused some self doubt and me questioning my judgement of people. Could I still trust my own instincts about people? Am I too trustworthy to soon? The answer to both is YES. I can trust my gut and I need to take a little more time before placing trust in others. When I first realised, I had misplaced my trust in this person, I was angry at them. But now I see it as a lesson. I will learn from it and keep my guard up whenever I'm around them.

Anyway, that's the downside of the last couple of weeks. 

The upside is, last Wednesday I went for drinks at Juno rooms and got to know a few more of my new work colleagues.

Juno Rooms

Then this Wednesday (yes, I am sensing a pattern #wednesdayisthenewfriday) after drinks overlooking the Thames river, I went for a lovely dinner at Vinoteca.

Vinoteca

I even tried my first ever Burrata. I was pleasantly surprised that I liked a mozzarella that wasn't melted as well as aubergine, as I haven't been a fan of it in the past. My taste buds have definitely developed as I've gotten older. 







Those of you that  know me well know, that when it comes to food, I'm not one for sharing. But as you can see, I made the effort to 'adjust' my attitude towards this 🤣



There's not much else going on with me at the moment. Just trying to settle into my new job, keep up with daily yoga & meditation and get through my current book "A Question of Trust" by Penny Vincenzi. 

Have a great day, remember you're a unicorn and don't let anybody shit on your rainbow 💖